I AM SICK AND TIRED OF NOT GETTING TO PUBLICLY SPEAK UP FOR MYSELF.I’M TIRED OF BEING ANONYMOUS. I DON’T GIVE A SINGLE SHIT ABOUT THE FUCKING BACKLASH I MAY RECEIVE.
here are my exact accounts of what happened the night of the bellwether show and what i want to happen as a result.
In the summer of 2012 (i was 17) a band called bellwether came to play at the Euro Gyro in Kent, OH. I met a few members of the band (one being Harry Corrigan) while i was outside smoking and we talked about bands like Make Do And Mend and TSSF. Harry and i started to flirt a little he told me I was pretty and at some point in the night we exchanged numbers and he gave me a Bellwether. After Bellwether played Harry said he wanted to show me a video so he went up to the van and opened the door and said come in so he could show me the video. I honestly was very confused by this i didnt understand why we needed to be in the an but i trusted him because he seemed like a nice enough person and got in. Harry opened his laptop and opened the video for a little and then he closed his laptop and turned to me and pulled me to him and he started making out with me. it was probably the most disgusting kiss ever, he used his teeth when he kissed and i still kissed him back even wen i didnt want to. i could see out the window to across the street where my friends car was parked and i saw him out there smoking and i had my phone between my legs and was actually thinking about texting for helpbecause i knew things were going to progress and i didn’t want them to. Harry pulled my hand over on to his crotch and he undid his belt and pants and puled it out. i started giving him a handjob just out of plain fear to be completely honest, in my head i thought “if i give him this maybe he’ll be satisfied and he won’t try to have sex with me”. anyways, harry kind of gave me this push/nudge on the back of my head to basically hint that he wanted oral which originally was fine but i pulled my head back up and i said i didnt want to do that and he asked why. honestly i didnt need to give him a fucking reason now that i looked back but i did give him a reason and a remember it crisply, i said “i didn’t want to be a slut” and he whispered to me “you wont be a slut” and put my hand back on his penis i had moved it for a moment. after this is when he began using force, we were making out again and i was gving him a hand job still and he put his hand on the top of my back/back of my neck and tried physically pushing me down towards his penis and i said “no i dont want to do this” and pushed back against his hand and clamped my mouth shut to avoid having it in my mouth. at one point when i was close enough that i could smell how disgusting he smelled i thought to myself “ya know maybe i should do it and get this over with maybe it won’t be so bad” but i couldn’t bring myself to d something I didnt want. he basically gave up and i pushed myself up and started kissing him again and he stuck his hand between my legs and started rubbing me through my pants and i told him to rub me lower so he wasnt touching the part of me that would actually get me aroused because i din’t want to be. i pretended to enjoy it because they teach you in self defense to pretend that you enjoy what a rapist is doing to you so they lose interest because what they want is power more than anything. i’d like to say that i do not suggest this because at least in this case it didn’t do anything. Harry pushed me down and got on top of me and pushed up shirt and bra and began touching my breast. i was so scared at this point in time i thought i was going to be raped. he moved one of his hands down my stomach and unzipped my pants but one of his band mates was abut to open the drivers door of the van and come in so we got up and just sat there until he left then harry made out out with me more and put my hand on his penis again so i’d play with him. he tried one last time to get me to give him head and gave up because i still refused to. in his story Harry says that i gave him a hand job until he finished and this is striked me as strange that he lied about this too. what happened was he wanted me to go faster and i didn’t really do that that well because i was on the verge of tears at this point so he went and looked through his bags to find a rag to finish in and made himself finish into the rag. he pulled up his pants, he may have kissed me that i do not remember, and i fixed my hair and bra and he left the van and i got out behind him and immediately walked across the street to my friend. as i walked over Harry went to his friends and they all cheered and highfived him like he fucking got some, it was so fucking disgusting. anyways i went to my friend and he asked me what happened because he could tell there was something wrong I began crying and told him i didn’t want to do any of the things that I did in the van and my friend got very angry and went inside to take everything down so we could leave. apparently Harry aproached my friend while he was inside and got very angry at him because harry was trying to say that nothing happened in the van. harry came out =side because i was by my friends car smoking and he told me my friend was jealous and freaked out and i just didnt say anything and he hugged me and i just about threw up all over him and he left to see his friends. my friend did not get mad out of jealousy he got mad because he knew someone hurt his friend.
I can still feel this man’s hand on my upper back pushing me down. i can feel it this very second. i had finally recovered from an assault that happened ten years prior but my recovery vanished and i was a fragile 7 year old girl again and i still am because of this. i’m still afraid “no” isn’t going to matter when guys are with me, im afraid of boys that look at me a certain way, and i’m afraid of sex. seeing harry’s side of the story hurt me just as much the attack did. if you still believe his side of the story i don’t want to know you and i DONT want you messaging me.
what i want is or him to be out of the music scene. i want bellwether to no longer be a band and i want everything that was mentioned in the post that Christian made. I dont care who you think is innocent i don’t care if you think Jake ZImmerman is a cool guy that does great things for your music scene. Jake and everyone in Bellwether are rape apologists and i do not believe that anyone that is a assaulter or a rape apologist should be part of the scene.i wouldn’t care if my best friend did this i’d still want them to pay for what they did.
what i DONT want is for anyone to do things like fight Harry or anyone involved for my sake. If you want to punch one of these guys in the face thats your business not mine, don’t do that as some favor to me because i don’t want to be involved with that and i don’t think that violene is the correct response.
anyways, if you have any questions, feel free to message me but don’t send me ANY of your rape apologist bullshit because i do NOT want to hear it. IF I RECEIVE ANY HARASSMENT I WILL CONTACT THE AUTHORITIES IMMEDIATELY.
if you would like to help and conact promoters telling them about this here the http://explainingwatertothefish.tumblr.com/post/67169470945/tw-harry-corrigan-of-long-island-bands-is-a-sexual to the original post incase you wanted to help out and make sure that Harry Corrigan can’t tour.